Day 1

I have been looking for a forum where I can share my journey. I have other blogs, for what goes on with my dog and my business, but what about me? Saying that out loud sound selfish. I guess more than that I think the fact that I want to share it makes it somewhat better.

These are the things I want to talk about:

• I want to share the joys and challenges of my marriage, which is about to start its second year. A lot of people decided that they wanted to blog their first year of marriage. That's fine, I want and hope that I will be able to blog years to come. Some of its challenges can be brought up as well. We have special circumstances that I'm sure can help other go through theirs as well
• I want to share my journey to a better me. I've always taken care of others until now I'm empty. I can't take care of anyone if I'm not here.
• My exercise journey. This is a must do, that I'm too lazy to do
• My health and my journey to recovery
• Reactivation of my brain. For the last couple of years I have drifted in a place of boredom. I stopped being who I am and I'm working slowly coming out. I'm redefining what I want. I don't want fame, beauty or glory. I want my brain to still think intelligibly, learn new and exciting things.
• My expressions. I've been a writer since I was 14 yrs old. I've written poetry, even won awards for some of my pieces. Seven novels written and destroyed. Since 2002 all I've written are vents and bill checks. I'm hoping my muse will come back and maybe I can be able to write again.
• Most important my journey back to basics. I think at the doors of 2009 and 3.5 yrs before I turn 40 has given me the chance to reflect on what's really important. Many people collapse without Internet access, their cell phones, their MC Nuggets, vacation on Hawaii...whatever. Is that true happiness? Not to me. Don't get me wrong, I don't plan to walk to work (10 miles in a very congested highway) and never watch TV and churn my own butter...nope! But I'm talking about what really matters.

We're living in a world with financial crisis, people going in bankruptcy, losing their homes, their jobs with nothing to fall back on. I have the theory that if we lived simpler lives, for the most of us, our salaries would be more than enough to support us and help a neighbor. We have engaged in this rampage of having more and more...of what? Aren't your closets full of things you don't even look at? We live in the world of the unnecessary and the satisfaction of what I crave NOW! and then what? just pay the consequences.

I think as a society we have stopped thinking and we're just automatically doing what feels good and not what makes sense.