More Adjustments

Well, the weekend is over. We survived our first budgeted weekend and we're left with $7...not bad. I was able to even put some money towards some past due bills, not clear them, but at least put something.I think somewhat this has helped our relationship. It also has helped with my emotions. I think I had given up on life for a moment and had retreated to just letting the hours go by. It has helped me value does little things that my husband does for me and I take for granted. I have been able to stop and smell the roses.

As for entertainment, he spent most of the weekend playing Wii. He read some of his book, but got bored and told me I could return it today with the ones I was returning. I read two books this weekend, listen to an audio book and wrote most of my Christmas cards. I also did five loads of laundry, but that's the never-ending task. I feel like I'm not doing enough and am being lazy. But I caught myself in that line of thinking this morning and decided to stop. If I'm honest with myself, I've been doing too much, having my hands in way too much to the point of burnout and that's when it hit the fan.I think in my road to recovery, which is starting slow, things are going to work out. I see us discovering each other. I'm finally getting some energy from resting and reading and eating better. Overall, I feel better.

Society draws us to the addiction of the commodities that then become necessities, but they're really unnecessary. I disconnected the Internet on my cell phone, readjusted our plan to fewer minutes and cancelled our subscription to our mailed movies. I estimate that it will be a savings of about $50 a month. It might not sound much, but it really is. I called them addictions, because I did not believe something as trivial as the Internet on my phone was going to cause withdrawals on me. Even though I still have it until the end of the month, in my mind it’s already gone. I caught myself thinking about how sucky it was, when I was in the living room not able to access my email or Facebook page. Now, who am I that need access to the Internet in my living room, when all I have to do is get off my lazy behind and go to our computer in our bedroom? I'm not the big CEO of a company whose shares are going to crash if I don't answer an email. I don't even check Facebook that much. It was just the fact that I could have it and now I didn't. I had only included the internet a year ago, when I got my first PDA and joined Facebook after the harassing emails from friends. Why was this so important today? My theory is that technological advances have made us into bratty teenagers that want everything that is new. Unfortunately instead of making our lives easier, it's making it harder. Why? It has limited our thinking and troubleshooting skills. It has caused people to isolated to their "online" relationships, instead on working on their "at home" relationships, including our relationship with God and the one with ourselves. I am guilty as charge.

Again, I'm not a purist. I don't think computers; cell phone and the Internet are the devil. I do think that every now and again, we need to pull the plug and smell the roses. Life is just once and we're wasting so much of it on what's not real or necessary.